This morning, i was not feeling well supposed to go pray with my parents every sunday. I still lying on my bed with me painful arms :(
Does he really care about it whether i am doing this for him. He never.. just dun want me to do this kind of silly and stupid things anymore.. I am glad he told me this way.

My came my room asked me am i okay daughter? i replied i am not feeling well can't go praying with your sorry.
My seat down on my bed, talked to me.. daughter why u are doing this to urself . Since he don't have feelings for you le u can't force him for anything and what if he give you another chance but he still have this kind of thinking that u r forcing him, do you think he will be happy with you? No he won't. I cried and cover myself.. mum knows i am crying and he kept telling me.. if anything happened to you what about your parents that always be there for you? I cried.
Mum said, let him go army.. after army he will be much more mature and after that if both of your got the fate your can be together again.. meanwhile just have to concentrate on your studies and do well with good grades.
Daughter, you can't control his life also, everyone have their own different life.. if now ur just boy gal rships and got this problems already, how about next time when your staying together as a husband and wife? will it be worst?
I know you love him alot and will always.. if you really do. let him go and let him go and do what he want., if he realised that u r the right gal for him he will come back to you.. u don't have to make urself in this kind of state. Mum hurt u know that :(

Sorry Mum.